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dean meme: three quotes about dean [2/3] » "you can’t stand the thought of being alone."
#actually sam what this all boils down to is dean’s lack of selfworth and self-esteem because your brother? your smart sweet firecely loyal#occasionally stupid hero of a brother? he thinks he’s failed everybody he cares about. he thinks that he’s poison.#he thinks that he’s worthless okay sam?#and we both know he’s not#but he’s had it drilled into him since he was a /child/ that as long as you were safe#as long as you were alive as long as he kept anything bad from happening to you#that he did his job. that he served his purpose. that he had some sort of worth in this universe //because he saved you//#so no it’s not about dean not wanting to be alone samuel#it’s about the fact that hours before he did something stupid and shitty that he never should’ve done in the first place#he thought he’d fucked everything in his life up#you were dying bc dean didn’t do the trials like he wanted to#you thought that he was /disappointed in you/ that you /let him down/ and that is the last thing he ever wanted you to think of him sam#he thought cas was going to go off and do something stupid and die and I’ll bet you every penny I have that dean blames himself for that#blames himself for metatron stealing cas’ grace and for the angels falling#he blames himself for the gates of hell not being closed for all the innocent people who are going to die for all the people he can’t save#so dean’s standing at your deathbed and he sees a mile long list of the ways he’s failed all the people he cares about today#and his mind defaults to ‘save sam.’#bc he can’t save cas and he can’t stop the angels from falling and maybe cas was right and he really can’t save everyone#but he can save you#he can save sam#he can do some good in the world today and he can save his baby brother from dying from something you never should’ve done#in the first place sam#it hasn’t been about that since season one sam#you are the one thing that dean things he’s done right and it absolutely kills me that you don’t understand that man (via slayerdeans)
Supernatural AU: Sam’s first encounter with his demon brother and he is in for a surprise.
I found my heaven inside of him.
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Can’t keep my eyes from the circling skies,
Tongue-tied and twisted, just an earth-bound misfit, I. [x]
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KH Week → Day 1: Favorite game in the series
Birth by Sleep
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So, I was giffing Lazarus Rising and got distracted by Dean’s eyes flickering to black.
#this means that#when castiel gripped dean tight and raised him from perdition#he didn’t just save dean in the physical sense#by pulling him out of hell#and away from his desires#to hurt and torture#but also very literally#from the nature of the monster that hell had already twisted him into#which#in a beautiful piece of#accidental foreshadowing#he has become again#as earth became his own personal hell#when everything that he loved seemed to have slipped through his fingers#and the nature within him#driven by the mark#rose up again inside#and took over#as the beast emerged from his soul#twisting him into the very form he loathed and feared from his past (via savingsammyhuntingdestiel)
This right here is kind of every headcanon I ever had about Dean’s initial descent in Hell and why Grace would the be answer to his salvation now. As crossroadscastiel stated in her tags, Grace is extremely powerful and the depth of that power is only extended by the human soul. If when he first raised Dean, Castiel used his Grace to cleanse the demon that Dean had become in the Pit, then the argument that Dean and Cas are bound together by a Grace/soul bond is immensely stronger. What that makes Dean - a man, touched by an angel’s Grace, turned into a demon - is something we haven’t ever seen before. There is nothing out there like Dean.
Right now, Cas needs to live and Dean needs to not be a demon. If Grace saved Dean’s damned soul once, then of course it could work this time around, especially when the entirety of his Grace is up for resell.